Waltz.

I tread carefully because I’ve been here before

burdened and willfully broken down

your hands are too smooth against the rough edges

your yellow brick road is too tempting to follow

I am running, running so fast and so hard

This race that doesn’t need to be won

I am searching for a finish line that doesn’t exit

and you’re extending your arms as I sprint

I am only me and sometimes I barely exist

You are only you and I resist your feelings

I am pieces of a puzzle misunderstood

You can’t replace my bad with your good

just breathe

I have practiced this waltz in a full-length mirror

moves calculated and precise

your intervention is too kind to give attention to

your heart is too full to filter through

I am flying, flying so high and so far

uncharted skies on an uninhibited trajectory

I need to soar high to fall hard

and your parachute won’t provide me safety

I am only me and sometimes I’m a mess

You are only you and I resist your patience

I am a lock that your key won’t fit into

You can’t open doors that you’re not welcome to walk through

just breathe

I am disappearing

this much is true

and you are fading from my view

I’m so sorry that I couldn’t hold onto you

but I’m searching for that finish line

that I’ve longed for

I am only me and nothing more

You are only you and deserve more

Stop trying to fix what can’t be repaired

Let yourself come up for air

and just breathe

just breathe

I am only me

I am only…me