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Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Affliction.

I trace the pattern of raindrops on your window
while you sleep next to me
I left my dignity somewhere between fate and hypocrisy
and wound up in your arms
I can’t deny that I hate myself for this
and you’ll never understand
that I never wanted to lose myself
even though you said “you can”

my adult decisions are wavered
by my lack of inhibition
and here I lay
on display
a victim of your affliction

I don’t want your hands, I’ll only push them away
I don’t want your advances, they’re more than I can handle today
I don’t want your -what am I saying?
I just want your attention while I’m fraying
one touch away from breaking
one touch away from breaking

I look in your eyes for some trace of commitment
but I come up empty
I long for those words that will end our confusion
but I fear the reality
I can’t deny that I’m not at my best
but you don’t see
that the reason I came here
was so I could forget my misery

my adult decisions are wavered
by my lack of inhibition
and here I lay
on display
a victim of your affliction

I don’t want your hands, I’ll only push them away
I don’t want your advances, they’re more than I can handle today
I don’t want your -what am I saying?
I just want your attention while I’m fraying
one touch away from breaking
one touch away from breaking

I’m truly on the edge of what could and could never be
and the only hand to pull me up is full of your broken words and promises empty
my adult decisions are damaged
by my ignorance of heart
do I walk away?
or do I stay…
and tear myself apart?

I don’t want your hands, I’ll only push them away
I don’t want your advances, they’re more than I can handle today
I don’t want your -what am I saying?
I just want your attention while I’m fraying
one touch away from breaking
one touch away from breaking

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